2003-10-23 - 1:38 p.m.
i have so many things to write about that mean nothing to me.
i'm gonna recap:
a few days ago i was riding along on my bike ("the bike") with a friend around midnight.. we just finished up our site-- Del Taco and jacuzzi to celebrate... on the way back, i was riding along a curb, trying to balance and negotiate a turn.. didn't work. The bike headed down from the curb, the basket jumped, the shake lid popped off..
i rode back w/strawberry shake-slime all over my foot..
but i knew in a few mins. i'd be in the jacuzzi, eating a few tacos, and thinking about how well things went..
you can ride over 5 blocks ..and even make a 7-11 pitstop.. with shake-slime on your good foot.. if you have something better in view. i am jack's urban Aesop's fable.
people let fear cripple them the way arthritis cripples old people.. they let it mount. they let it thrive. and there's not much they or i can do about it.. removing fear is like removing an arm-- it's not something you volunteer for.. usually when people are no longer afraid, it's because somebody cut off their fear by removing an integral part of their psychological anatomy.. in Fed-Ex terms it's called "damaged goods."
i cut my hair 2 days ago. i messed up in the back (reflection in the mirror is in reverse for those eager to follow in my footsteps.) i was staring at it for a minute..thought about fixing it up... but i lack the necessary fear of ridicule to do much about it..
when people presume to speak for the rest of the [insert large group], that fucking pisses me off.. on the one elbow, it's true.. stupid people do often speak for other stupid people w/o the luxury of even communicating with one another. but on the other elbow, why do you want to be thought of as an individual when you're always busy confirming your identity via a group consensus..
people are lying when they say they want to be original... people don't want to be original.. people want to belong..people are also lying when they say they want to be thought of as individuals..they don't. they want to belong.. which is not a bad thing.. it's the fucking pretentiousness of the two conflicting sentiments that makes me want to auction off more elaborate lies to the general public..
